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2011-06-03T11:26:00.000-07:00

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2011-05-24T23:21:00.000-07:00

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Skinny love.

I've learn that being nice doesn't get you anything in return but at least you know you've tried it and you tell yourself is fine. But sometime it is not alright at all. What would you do? Hmm.. From today onwards, I think no matter what happens I will only keep it to myself and turn to no one. I'll save myself from those unnecessary troubles. It seems like the more I care about something and it always turns out to be in a bad shape. At times, I tend to not tag along with people when I felt that I'm hurt by the actions or words. Sorry if I turn away and give you the bad 'aura' that I'm sad, mad, or whatsoever at you. That's me...

Anyway, I guess I can sum up that I kind of enjoy my last weekends. Although, this week is gonna be hectic but its Wednesday tomorrow, so two more days to weekends! :)

2011-05-17T01:34:00.000-07:00

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Tried And True.

You took the time, to get to know me
Showed you a side without, without a disguise
It's like you knew me, you saw right through me and
It's too late, for second chances I'm
Tucked in, with sweet romance and I want you to know

Cause every moment, tells a story
Of two kids, still falling in love
It always feels new, when I'm with you
And every second, we're together
Paints a picture, of a future with you
Cause our love, is tried and true

2011-05-12T04:52:00.000-07:00

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One day.

Hi folks! Feeling a little down today. What about yours?

Yes, my current job is coming to an end, what should I do next? I must say that this job opportunity is hard to come by but I feel that there is no way for me to stay. Although, it is a place where you can build your career.. But I feel that it is so hard to be appreciated over there. I trust my own stand. Been there, done that. It's kind of like not my kind of thing? Besides that, the people there are like totally jinx. I know right with my kind of personality, it just doesn't work that way. Whatever, you call that P-O-L-I-T-I-C-S perhaps. This is working life. But on the brighter side there are of course some awesome peeps I've met. :)

Always remember, they say 'keep your enemy close to you', but I've never done that. One quote saying 'Just be yourself, don't take anyone's shit, and never let them take you alive. -Gerard Way' That would do.

Also, been missing out many friends, I really hope I can make more dates and do some catch up! 'Friendship means understanding, not agreement. It means forgiveness, not forgetting.It means the memories last even if the contact is lost.'What do you think?

Lastly, I so wanna screw that idiot who spam virus that causes my msn account to be hacked. DAMN YOU, LOSER!!! I'm still so mad with hotmail messenger, they just can't freaking delivered my code that allows me to reactivate my account. SO I STILL CAN'T USE MY HOTMAIL YET, SUCHA BITCH RIGHT! :') PLEASE BE CAREFUL PEOPLE, you might just be the next victim!

Ok, time for my dinner! Bye!

2011-04-29T22:30:00.000-07:00

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Wonderland.

Oh gosh, I'm like so freaking bored. Just kept myself busy by watching the tveee. Yup, prince william and princess kate 's wedding was awesome!!! Well, I don't really know what else to do, I've got work tomorrow, so annoying. Probably some supper and hitting the sack right after. Ugh, I almost forgotten that the back of my teeth is bleeding, kind of hurt.

Now the question is what should I do after tomorrow's facial? Gaaaaaaah. It's gonna be another boring saturday I guess. Wait, but is a long weekend. Shall feed myself with lots of spicy nuggets. Ok bye!

2011-04-24T21:20:00.000-07:00

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Unconditional love.

Hi, not so sure if I can summarize my week as a good one. But I really do appreciate the time I spent with my dearest friends. Sometime, I've to make some decisions and I've let someone down. I know is kind of a disappointment to any one of them with the choice I made. Please forgive me. I'm sorry, I know I'm a lousy friend.

2011-04-20T20:24:00.000-07:00

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It's pink day!

Hellooooooo, it's the last day of work tomorrow! It's ph on friday! Happy me! Can't wait for the coming week, yay! Hopefully everything turns out to be good! Yeap, so gonna catch gossipgirls right after dinner! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Have a good weekends everyone!

PS: Happy 18months baby! xoxo

2011-04-12T21:13:00.000-07:00

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Temper is what gets us in trouble, pride is what keeps us there.

Sup! Its tuesday, 3 more days to weekends!! But I'm not really kind of looking towards it... Anyway, I'll be meeting chrissy tomorrow as I've got a half day offset! Gonna do something awesome, hopefully! Yayy! I can at least be happy for now!

Ok, hasn't been in the good mood for the past few days.. I think b, we're in a very bad terms now. I admit that I'm selfish and I may be harsh at certain things, but it's just to protect myself from getting broken.. Trust and respect needs to be earned, without that everything falls apart. Each time I will try to pretend nothing has happen than to think why is it happening to us. It's like apologizing and letting it go every single time. I really feel tired doing this all over again. I'd give up anything just to be your everything. I know you do too.. Since we're not able to change what has happened, I really hope both us can learn to appreciate what we've before time forces us to appreciate what we've lost?

When a heart is true, there's no need for words; because even in silence, love can be heard. Live simply, expect little and give much.

I miss you... I wonder if you feel the same way too.

2011-04-09T01:53:00.000-07:00

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What are words?

Sup, its weekends again! But tomorrow's sunday, which means monday is approaching! :( Hate work mazzzzzzzz.

Aww, I'm home on a saturday night, sad much. I've lost the feeling of being out on weekends with my love one, cause seems like I haven done that for such a long time. But of course I do enjoy whenever I'm out with my dearest girlfriends. It's just... Can't explain..

Was in town with cass bbg earlier on, we walked from one end to another and skipped club. Well, I must agree that it was boring because what's new in town? Haha, but it's such a great catch up with her! & Jolyn and prissy better meet up soon!

Yesterday, val's birthday - USS/ESKI BAR.

Some pictures but super lousy quality:

Alright, I'd better head to bed soon! Bye!

2011-04-04T23:57:00.000-07:00

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Alligator sky.

I'm confused, I don't really know what's my next step? Although I really would want to go back school... Urmm, my contract is so ending in 3 months, another job offer? What should I do? Is this what God has really plan for me? Can someone tell me please.

Yeap, well is also gonna be v's birthday this friday, would it be awkward if I attend? It no longer feels like one group anymore...

Ugh, kinda hate this feeling. But I must be positive - (+++), I must...

2011-04-02T12:40:00.000-07:00

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Say you want the same thing too.

Hi, its sunday!

Ok, its a boring day I must say, hahaha.
But I'd love to stay home, blasting some soothing music. It makes me feel good.
Alright, hopefully the coming of a new month will be a great one? :)

2011-03-26T14:33:00.000-07:00

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OH.

Hi, how's everybody? :)

I'm feeling much better this days..
I tried to look on the brighter side of my life. I learn to take things easy. I believe some friends are meant to be in your life while some are not. Friends can be really nice at times but some can be really nasty.

Haters, strangers or anyone, all I've been through. Some really became part of my life while some they just messed up mine. SO MAYBE IF YOU ARE LIKE READING THIS, you would like to mind your own business alright, thanks?

I don't really know if that person was you but I guess. I don't remember myself having too many screwed up friend like you, so duh? And : *I just want you to know that people were really there for you when all your 'best friends' - that you consider them that left you for those reasons that I pretty much don't agree in the first place, but for now I'm speechless.. Stop trying to get opportunities to go out and spout nonsense that weren't even true? Not everyone thinks like you and feels like you. Worst, you are such a boot-lick-ers? Being your friend needs your acceptance to 'this and that' about whoever you are saying. Please understand someone personally before you try to agree with others blindly. Oh God, seriously you think that you are so wonderful? Go take a look at the mirror. No one ever says anything because they don't bothers and probably they will be like slut much, who cares.

Enough. We aren't like sixteen anymore. Jealous? Stop trying to destroy people's life cause you can't be like them.

I don't really know what else to say, I could only conclude that you are one of a kind, shameless and I'm disgusted by you.

WELLLLLLLLLLLL, I shall stop here.. I hope I can update more often. &&& Have good day everyone! :)

2011-02-25T23:12:00.000-08:00

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Dance on, dance on..

Hi to anyone that might happen to dropped by here!? I haven blog for a damn long period of time as you can see. And this is so going to be a sad post.

Kind of feel like I need to write out somehow cause I don't think telling anyone does helps because no one actually understands me. I'm weird, I've a problem and I'm sensitive. I like to be alone, keeping quiet at times when I feel uncomfortable with anything. Don't ask me why, I'm just like that. Or perhaps I'm just afraid to get hurt all over again. It's sad to be reminded of the past.. It breaks my heart and makes me want to die. Oh well, I guess my personality haven change a bit after so long.

Sighed, been in this state for quite sometime.. Or can I say, 'been there, done that'. It's just another replay. At times, I really wonder beside all the friends I've met, the new or old and how many will turn their back on me again? I don't doubt them. I'm just afraid because I love my friends. They say: 'people come and go', how true. I'm insecure in many ways, you might think that I'm insane, but hell yeah I'm not. I just want a friendship that is simple yet happy being together. I really do not need those that always think that their right in everything, at least please have the courtesy to understand people difficulties, instead of trying to have second thought of that person. You wouldn't know how it feels if you weren't at the state before. Try putting people in their shoes, I always do but do you? The first step of putting blame on someone is considered the wrong move. I dislike to explain myself, trying to make things back on the right tracks because it doesn't change a bit of anything. If people are able to accept who you are but why can't you do the same thing too? I don't why people only can look on the picture itself, have you ever look at the bigger view? If you do, you can see many happy things or anything that the person have shared together with you.

On my side, I'm struggling so badly. Knowing my own mistakes, changing, but I don't really know myself anymore. Everything seems to be wrong, I'm tired of everything and how else can I do anything. I guess I will let things be as of now and I need to set some boundaries.

Enough said.

On the other side, I'm happy because I get to meet up with @westartariot and @deadcircuslove last night. Love you two as always.

2010-11-28T11:03:00.000-08:00

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YOU & I.

Hi, it's been awhile since i last updated, hehe.. Anyway I like this song! :)

& Baby I miss you and your long hair, haha.

2010-07-15T23:42:00.000-07:00

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“All the space without you in it, is empty.”

2010-07-13T12:47:00.000-07:00

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Ohmygod.

Good afternoon.

Just had my big breakfast and i feel that i had too much, mad uncomfortable. I really think i should stop eating oily stuff from now on! And with the chili sauce i choke myself on Saturday is making me feel shit too! Okay, i did something really scary today. I hope i did perform well! Even though i didn't, i should thank god for this opportunity too! :)

Okay, besides that my new phone will be here tomorrrow! Hurray! And i guess there is nothing i should be happy about! Cause i think i'm feeling really moody this period. I ask myself, but i'm not sure what is the reason too?

I just wanna say: God i'll give you control of everything... :>

2010-07-07T00:07:00.000-07:00

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Its okay.

I've got to blog again.. Because i wanna say thankyou to god. It seems like god heard me. I caught 11:11 today in the morning just after one call.

However, something good and bad happened today. I believe, if something good happens to you god will probably have to take away something else.

The good news will probably be still kept within myself till when the time is right before i announce it. But on the other side, the bad news is that i've got lesser time together with bb from this week onwards. A friday night, a saturday night and a half day of sunday, thats all!? Its so sad, this is probably so unexpected and i'm not too sure how can i react to this bad news but well..

2010-07-06T08:59:00.000-07:00

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Love yourself too.

Hello,

Its pretty early in the morning! I'm wide awake because i'm hungry again.. I just had my breakfast. Ohwell, anyway i really can't stand any longer waiting for replies from those jobs. I just felt like useless, waiting and doing nothing everyday! This is bad. Dear god, will you please grant me a job? So that i can make good use of my time for holidays..

On a random side, i saw this few sentence in the tvee show two days ago. It says: "Love is quite contradictory, when we're together we'll often bricker. But when we're not able to see each other, we missed each other." - I think that is probably part of love i guess... However, i told b about it. He agrees too. That happen quite often recently between us, but we're doing fine. Its just both of us who wanted full attention from each other as we're only able to see each other during weekends... Actually a one full day of sunday together, that is not really quite enough? But not to worry b, i know this is not what we wanted, but we do have a choice to this. We shall learn not to complaint and yak about it! Things will be back to normal hopefully after you've poc or so! I'll be waiting! :)

& somehow i feel quite upset on the other side because of my friends. Well, i'm not referring to anyone in particular so don't get me wrong.. I just felt that no one actually truly understand my side, don't they? I feel kind of drifted from my close ones except that few... I can't seem to figure out where the problems lies. They didn't really bring up to me anything or so and i just thought that everything is fine? I guess its only those people who are actually in a relationship/or someone who experience the same thing before who actually does understand what i was trying to say, yes no?

I really hope i could get to meet my friends up as often as i could. I can no longer text them randomly and ask them out as i like, for shopping, for this and that... Not because i'm not able to meet my bf on weekdays and yet trying to find someone to kill my time with. I gave six days time to my friends and only one full day, perhaps plus three two late nights and a half day to my bf. If anyone has the time for me i will definitely be there. But i felt that i'm the only one to understand people's feelings, who is gonna be there for me and understand my part? I mean friendship is not a chores. We accommodate willingly to each other because we love and treasure each other right? But i hates it when bgf crashes with friendship... Its a two different thing. Everyone of us will long to face this one day... Maybe one will only understand when their time comes...

Hmmm its going 9am yeap, i'm actually suppose to go to the doctor for my back. But i'm really lazy. Mum keeps nagging everyday, can't seems to stand it anymore. - "Blahblahblah, its for your own good." Okayyyyyyyy, fine. :<

2010-07-05T23:08:00.000-07:00

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What you waiting for.

Hi blog,

I blogged today because i'm so bored. Whenever i'm bored i feel like eating tons of foooods... Today i had instant noodle, fried dumpling, fries, subway, brownie ice-cream, etc. Ohman, is this alot? :( Fat already!!!!!! But whatever, it doesn't really bother me much! HAHAHAHA! I hope i don't have fatty cheeks, that will do! Hmm feel so damn b-r-o-k-e, seriously. After comtemplating.. i've decided to take up that 3month temp job first and see how things goes. At least i have $$$$. I hope everything will turns out good, the people at work is gonna be friendly, i'm rather a shy person.. Hates to make friends all over again!

Anyway, caught 3 movies this weekends! Awesome, though i'm kind of clueless to some parts of the movie! Gonna catch more movies this weeek! Yeap, & hopefully i'll be able to head to marina b for my kite flying, yay! Alright, thats about it, bye! :)

2010-07-01T00:26:00.000-07:00

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Billionaire.

Hi, just had my hot milo!!! Its almost raining everyday, i prefer the sun...Bahh. Its tgif again! I realize whenever monday comes i wish for friday.. So finally!

On wednesday, i met joce and val in town after the stupid interview with prissy at eunos. The office is mad far inside, freaking way deep inside this corner, legs breaking and so exhausted with all the walking! Today i spent my day doing 'secret!!'.. Hopefully i can finish part of it asap! And tomorrow, i'm gonna meet vel for lunch at hollandv, everything with fries! Been wanting to try that for so long, can't wait. Probably town or so after lunch! Gonna catch eclipse with bb at night! :) It will be a awesome day tomorrow, yes!

Anyway i think i'm lame, i went to create formspring for fun. Probably there will be no one commenting anything. Hahaha! Alright, so gonna head to bed in awhile! Goodnight!

2010-06-29T22:35:00.000-07:00

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2010-06-28T23:22:00.000-07:00

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Beautiful.

Has anyone ever came across a point of time when you can't possibly put your feelings into words and the past kept haunting you so badly but all you want to do is to cry, so you would feel better? I know it sounds stupid if you're not gonna explain anything and well it doesn't help to solve anything as well.. Sometime, i can't seems express myself well to anyone and not sure if i'm opening up enough too.

I hope i'm doing things well and not messing up anything in friendships and relationships. Cause i'm learning to give and not to take. Its not so easy for me, after so much of shits from the past.. I hope i can get more understanding from people that means alot to me. I can give all the time i have in the world to them, but sometime all i want is understandings and a little time of their for myself, am not asking too much right? I miss alot of people. It reminds me of them when i came across certain things.. Even though i only manage to keep certain people in my life but i guess is enough and i really do treasure them alot.

This is not a emotional post or whatsoever you think i'm having problems kind of post.. Hahaha i just came across lots of stuff recently and i thought alot about it. I love my life now, simple yet sweet..

Alright, hehehe i shall watch my last few episode of dramas and turn in early! Oh and i need a job badly. I hope i'll get one soon, i'm getting poorer and poorer each day. I'll probably blog again when i feel like again to keep this blog alive! Kthx for reading this boring post, bai!

2010-06-17T23:03:00.000-07:00

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Suddenly i see.

Oh well, tomorrow's friday! Yet another weekends! Hehe, separated from baby only for two days this week, awesome much! I can see him tomorrow again! I think i somehow really like spending time together at home watching dramas and heading to gym with him! Lets do that more often, rather then going town, town and town again..

Hehehe anyway went to search for my 'timtam' today with sister! I saw this really cute one at bugis, omg so gonna get her like tomorrow or saturday! By the way 'timtam' is my new name for my guinea pig. I hope i can sort of overcome the fear of pets, yes i can. Cause everyone knows i'm afraid of pets. HAHAHA, okay sounds pretty stupid here. Ehya, sissy is like so so so so excited than me, she is probably gonna come home everyday just to play with it! :O

In the evening, met veluriya, like finally! After months... Had a great catch up with her, its so fun, if only she could stay longer! But its okay, there is always another day! :> Alright, will be heading to bed early today, i've got some stupid shit talk to attend tomorrow!

Till then!

2010-06-11T10:43:00.000-07:00

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Surprises.

Hi i think i needa update this space, its almost going a week, a tad too long.
Anyway, this two week was bad, like real bad. Exams is not really over for me yet. I feel like i'm always trying to be ahead of time... Been staying up almost everyday till the next morning just to revise. Unfortunately, my body was weak, so it went haywire, i had a fever a day before the hardest paper, a paper i know i shouldn't fail at all!!!! Now the nightmare that i must pass this fucking paper keeps coming into my dream, if not i might need to remodule! I hope i can do it, i really do.

Anyway is TGIF, finally i get to see the weekends. I can somehow put a smile on my face, as well as i can see that someone who really means a lot to me. He can hear my rants and hug me till i'm asleep.. Also i hope i will have a awesome weekends, cause i seriously think i need to relax and chill. Ohwell, if i'm feeling better later, i'll definitely get my ass out to meet val and joce. I don't wish to stay home and face the tv again, suxx much.

I don't really know what can cheers me up for now, surprises? Hmm, everyone love surprises, don't they.

2010-06-03T15:57:00.000-07:00

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This is good, go try! :>

Hello. Accounting paper was pretty good? But i forgotten how to do the damn cashflow statement and adjustment for trading profit loss account :( So i did theory, and i left 7m blank!!! I felt so sad after i left the exam room... Oh and my trial balance don't balance at all!?! Nevermind, what is done, is done.

Anyway, i'm currently relaxing in my aircon room plus i secretly went to steal my mum seikisho mask! :P Hahaha, shall skip my sleeping mask for today. But i'm still so bored ttm, haiiiiiiii. Hope tomorrow is gonna be a better day. Yeap, it will cause i'm meeting prissy tomorrow, finally! And bb is booking out tomorrow too, yayness! Brunch + shopping + dinner + movie with bb. Eggcited much! :)

2010-06-02T00:37:00.000-07:00

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Oh well! Is 1230am now. I'm suppose to go bed at 12am but because i drank coffee, now i'm wide awake, fml. I've got paper tomorrow! :( Somehow i'm hungreh too cause mummy just ate instant noodle..

I supa like that bag above, though the price has already been discounted, but is still so expensive :( Bb says i can't buy anymore bags cause i've too many. I'm a sadddzgalz now. How!? But i really likeee it what! Someone buy for me pretty please with a cherry on top?

Aiya, i'm so hungreh i cannot take it anymore, food food food! Rwar.

2010-05-31T20:32:00.000-07:00

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I should be studying since 8 but i'm missing my boy so badly now. :( though he can be real annoying sometime.. but i still love him alot! 4days away till i can see him again!

Anyway, i hope i can do as much revision as i can today.. Seriously hate theeeee late minute kind of thing.. I'll need to wake up like 6am to revise!?!? i did that today morning.. Ugh, so yaa f&b paper suxxx much. Everything i studied din't really came out, what's out is only worth less than 10m. Irritating ttm. Topic given is kind of not really related uh. Whatever, i hope i won't fair badly, at least a C will do. So that i'll feel that all the effort i put in for my studies are worth it.. K gtg now!

2010-05-27T14:31:00.000-07:00

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3 days to exams.

Hi, i'm so tired. Been pushing myself to study real hard for this last term. I hope i can do well. Luckily i'm no longer working for now, i think i'll die if i do. Its so boring staying home facing the books everyday.. And i think its not really productive for me studying in the day.. I'm kind of night study person. :( When people are sleeping i'm studying and viceversa. What the fuck, my body is gonna get screwed so badly, no wonder i'm feeling so uncomfortable now, sucks ball!

Baby is booking out today!!!! I wish i can spend all my time with him but i don't think so i can now. Looking at the pace i'm revising, it seems like it is taking forever to finish!?!?! Someone help me! 'Study smart' mmmm, i don't know how? Haha. Whatever, i've my own way.

Ah okay, i'm declaring that my life sucks for now! Kbai! I've decided to go and take a nap.

2010-05-20T02:43:00.000-07:00

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Happy pills.

Its friday!!!! I can see my bb tomorrow, yay! ;)

2010-05-19T23:21:00.000-07:00

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Pyramid.

And even when the wind is blowing, we'll never fall just keep on going, forever we will stay, like a pyramid.

Sup. School is out, i'm only left with exams which is in two weeks time. Awesome much. Hehehe, its been so long since i blog. Yknow sometime you are just lazy.. Anyway its the 20th tomorrow.. Yay which means issssss our anniversary baby. Time flies, its our seven month. :) Although you're not able to be here and celebrate with me, but its okay, i'll still see you on friday!! Really would like thank you for your last text, it totally makes my day!! Love you bb.

Alright, need to go and get my stuff done by tonight, will be working tomorrow, kind of my last day? Happy?!? Perhaps. Gdnight!

2010-05-13T00:16:00.000-07:00

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Hi, what a day! Seriously, i'm so freaking mad tired!:< But looking at this makes me happy:

Okay i really like it, how? I know that no one will actually bother about me if i tell anyone i want it, right baby? But it is such a good deal to get it now. :O

Anyway presentation was quite successful today, had lunch with my classmates and had work till at night.

& Ya hopefully i can sleep till late afternoon tomorrow without waking up early for doing nothing because there is no school! Like pheww, i should like make good use of it.. Alright, i need to sleep now.

2010-05-11T22:30:00.000-07:00

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Hi, just a short one for today before i head to do my work. Met up with val & joce today for dinner + chilling. Headed home after that. Anyway i think...

WOW. I REALLY NEED TO STOP S.P.E.N.D.I.N.G

Idk why too, buying stuff just makes me feel happier! Yeap however i just realize i bought like 4tops 1dress 1skirt 1sandals... & i still have the urge to keep on buying. This is crap. No wonder mum is so mad at me! But some clothes are like from last month whattttttttt. Like f21 kind of thing, she don't seems to understand at all lo :< Okay blame it on me. Mum says that if i buy some more new clothes, she will take scissor and cut! She is so mean... Ohwell, i feel so sad, i think i need to do some self reflections..

2010-05-10T20:09:00.000-07:00

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Fight for this love.

Ah, moday bluezzz, not. Bb went back to camp today! :< Gonna wait till friday again! Time flies, my weekends ended just like that. Felt like i din't had much time with him..

Last friday, out with the girls in my class + dinner @ hv with baby. Saturday, was out with jeslin + family dinner + marina barrage. Sunday, dinner with b's mum and town for shopping+ long awesome talk with bb :). Today had school + projs meeting.. Oh gosh, two more projs to be done and is due like next week!!!??! This is bad! But i'm sure we can do it right! Hehe! Jessica's gonna ask me to 'continue again', lololol. & work is on this wednesday and thursday, sigh suxxxx so much. Resting days will be tuesday and friday only for this week!

Anyway, i'm gonna go wash up and head to bed early.. Have a good rest everyone!

2010-05-08T14:29:00.000-07:00

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LOOK AT MY NOSTRIL, HEHE! BIG RIGHT!

Yo! Goodafternoon! Haha, i'm blogging cause i'm bored again! Bb went for his ndp training in the morning (fhl) and i slept all the way at his place till just now, so freaking tired! Head home and got my lunch and meeting jeslin!!!! (I really hope i'll get to meet her, its been a long time, well miss her.) She's such a pig, sometime! Hehe!

Then dinner at night with family at mum's favourite place, for her mother's day dinner! And maybe movie with bb after that? Maybe not? I've got no idea.. Just not 'home' straight after dinner. Its gonna be boring if we're 'seeeeeeeeeee this baby!' :/ Hehehe. Tomorrow is sunday! Its gonna be awesome cause maybe we'll be going to the flyer or something with the tixs i got from my school. As everything is quite done now, the helix bridge, marina bay sand, blahblah it will be as pretty as before right? :)) Okay, guess i got to go now! Jeslin says she will be done in awhile!

2010-05-06T10:09:00.000-07:00

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Skipping lessons seems to be a weekly thing for me now? And with all sort of reasons.. This & that &&&& blahhhhh. I just hate to go school somehow since the start of this term. I hate comm skills and case study? Uh huh. And my only favorite is accounting.. No wonder my results is getting worst, from A A A B to A * * * >:( what theee. Ah, i'm not attending lesson today due to the slightly sore eye i had on my left eye. And yet i'm blogging but not resting.. However, i'm meeting val later @ 430, almost hours to go, guess i should go back to sleeeep and hopefully my eye will get better laterrr! Bye.

2010-04-29T23:53:00.000-07:00

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Hi, i'm pretty lazy to blog. I'm so busy with my life now. School to work to (blahblahblah) Anyway, I've got workshop tomorrow, but i'm not sure if i should turn up. Everyone is not going, yes? Whatever. Some dumb workshop, with long hours of talking makes people feel like sleeping..

Browsing through some blogs few minutes ago.. I'm not too sure if i should laugh or be sad or (inset any emotions) with what i saw. Just feel that some people tend to pretend too much. It doesn't irk me but.. Hahaha, i guess only the outsiders can see everything. Ohwell, i shall just keep reading, awesome much. Alright, needa sleep soon. Cough syrup is making me drowsy now. & Baby is booking out tomorrow, yay, can't wait for the weekends. Goodnight!!!!

2010-04-06T02:24:00.000-07:00

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Hi! Its 216am, school's afternoon tomorrow, but i needa go bed soon! :( Bb is so gonna scold me if he knows i'm still awake. But i'm missing him so much! I'm currently listening to this song:

Its really nicee. I love it. In fact all the songs by owl city is awesome! Alright, i gtg now! :) Nights!

2010-03-25T00:52:00.000-07:00

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Mmm, munching on my milk pan bread i bought earlier on at hv with ivy! Can't get enough of it, its soooo yummy! Gonna get more tomorrow if i can! Anyway, i'm like so awake? Cause i took a super late nap till 8pm so i am wide awake now! :( I really don't know what to dooooooooo. Worst thing i'm most afraid is to keep doing online shopping! Ohno.

Soooooo yeap. Recently, i had like pimples or rather small dots on my forehead and face. I'm wondering if is getting better after using this night sleeping mask. Been using it like for a month? I hope it is working! I think it is? Hahaha. Okay, maybe you will not get to see the result so fast! :| Or maybe i should not put too much high hopes on this type of facial products. All i need to do is to drink more water and sleep early! (Y)

Yaaaaaaa and now i'm now currently searching for this particular bag i really wanted while chatting with jess! (am not shopping. just looking around, hahaha) Well, its soooooooo pretty! I saw it at this website but not so sure if is like authentic kind of thing. The bag is like $$636.00USD :( like around nine hundred in sg i suppose after discount. Omg, i like it so much! Hahaha, i'll was hoping to get it one day, that if it is still available, which will probably not! Okay that's like sad! So hard for me to save, spent almost 1k plus this month. Perhaps i can work more and get more mooooooos la!

&&&& speaking about work, my schedule for the job is like so little now, which partly piss me off so badly okay. Working like 2 days this week and 1 day only for next week? Next next week? I guess... none!! >:( In the past, i will usually be scheduled 3-4days in a week in alternate days to work. But now, although i've only limited days i could work, which is 4days, but i was hoping i won't get this kind of schedule!!!! Felt so upset about it! I mean its like only when they need staff they would like encourage you to work more days or can i say when they do not have enough staff they would ask you to standby kind of thing (usually this period of time is when you're so busy and crop up with school works) Oh and they are like still hiring workers currently with those few people they just interviewed with few days ago!?!?! (i really don't understand why they still do, when i myself and some others staff schedules is already ridiculously so little..) Thinking of changing another job! Cause you really feel like 'ugh' and you don't have the stand to say anything.. Ah whatever, just pouring out my feelings, it doesn't really matter to me anymore, cause is almost 2 more month left.

Its going 1am, better end off here and go to bed! So excited, gonna see bb tomorrow! Can't wait to give him a big hug! :>

2010-03-23T00:27:00.000-07:00

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Yoohoo. Finally i get to blog! I guess i'm becoming more a lazy bum very soon. Ohwell, its tuesday, a boring one as usual. Had school and work in the late afternoon! Sales was bad, as in real bad? Okay whatever.. Done with two days of work and i'm like free till my next week schedule is out, awesome. Was on the phone with baby earlier on, few more days till baby is out! I miss him like hell lots, always felt something missing from me when he is not around. :(

Yeap, its 1217am, no online shopping for me because i'm frigging broke? Haha. Spent too much on clothing, shoes yada yada. The only thing i got for myself since i'm back from bkk was the 'polkadot blazer' fullstop. See bb i'm such a goodgirl!!!! Though i see rather lots of other things i wanna get but not so soon i guess? Anyway talking about online shopping, you might wanna head to (http://www.lovepaperriot.blogspot.com) to take a look.

Yay, got something to share! The above pair of gucci flats b bought for me is my new love. I know i'm kinda crazy about shoes now. Sooooo even though i got another new love, i'll still love you my sal ferragamo. Uhuhhhhh, alright enough of all the shoesss.. Haha, i guess i need to turn in school before i couldn't wake up for lesson tomorrow! So nights.

2010-03-21T20:10:00.000-07:00

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Oh hello!
I'm like back home early today! Friday, i rot my ass off till evening and i get to see my bb, like finally the 11th day his booking out! Had like dinner with b and together with cass & j. And caught cop out after that. Saturday, was town with b, dinner and movie remember me together with b's friends. :) Sunday, east ocean lunch with b's family, run some errands with him, dinner at hv sushi teh. And yeap, b left for his camp! Could only see him next friday! Oh b, missing you like now!:( Well, anyway yesterday was our 6month, so happy 6month bb! Hope you like the gift. And thanks for the g flats too! Anyway i've written almost everything i had to say on the card and oh thankyou for the talk last night too ;) Alright, gonna shower and catch some dramas, bye!

2010-03-19T14:12:00.000-07:00

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2010-03-15T23:25:00.000-07:00

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Hi! Its 225am now! One post before i sleep! Lecturer's on medical leave, so there is no lesson tomorrow! Yay, i can finally wake up late! Was kind of worn out due to working for two days from 2pm to 10pm! So i shall hit the sack soon! :))

Sometime i really wonder why do i've so many things to buy? Ohman, this is bad dawn. Maybe i shall buy none, because i must control and be a good girl! :) Goodnight!

2010-03-10T22:30:00.000-08:00

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Hello again.
I rot my day at home today by doing all sort of nonsense, like sleeping/eating/online shopping/facebook/bloghopping/twittering. Its so so so so boring. :( I hope tomorrow will be a better day. On the other hand, i'm starting to worried about my results, big sigh. Besides that, i'm currently waiting for baby's call. Its already 1030, maybe he wouldn't call today. Its okay, doesn't matter cause today he called twice, haha! Ohwell, i think i'm gonna watch some random dramas and go to bed. Meeting michelle tomorrow, can't wait! Alright, goodnight hunnies.

2010-03-09T17:40:00.000-08:00

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All my life.

Finally get to blog now, after 23626327378 years.
Yes baby got enlisted today, sent him with his mum and sister. Feeling rather down earlier on... But guess i'm fine now! Mmmmm, my holidays are gonna end this week, so gonna chillax and try to occupy myself with things to do. Exams ended last thursday, guess that i'm not gonna perform very well like the previous term. Business was a disaster, my brain went hirewire, i can't memorize a single shit. God please give me a grade c okay? Din't get to sleep at all the day before business paper, awesome much uh! Headed to town to get stuff with jess and wx after paper. After that was home to rest. As it was baby's birthday, went for dinner at verve, somewhere at gillman, it was home for cake and packing as we're leaving for bkk the next day. Woke up early the next day. I was hell tired but had to dread myself out of the bed. So we board our flight at 155pm and landed at 4pm according to sg, compared to the time at bkk which was an hour slower.

Headed to our hotel at centre point for checking in. First destination was mbk, it was kinda boring for me? Its more suitable for people who are interested in fake stuff. Headed to siam areas later on. We tried our best to covered as much as we could as the place was too freaking big ttm!? Later on, it was suanlam night bazaar till midnight. Woke up around 10am the next day and had breakfast at the hotel, followed by siam and chatuchak weekend market which we spent half of our day there! Of course we din't manage to covered all the shops there. Left around evening to platinum mall/siam again later at night. Headed back to the hotel early as we're leaving next day on a afternoon flight. Overall it was an average trip i guess? The only fun thing was that the trip was together with baby, just the two of us. :) And i din't managed to get much things for myself, as to me the things at bkk isn't really cheap unless you more then 3pieces? Guess i've too many clothing, (wardrobe overloading alert!!!) >:( But what i realize was that almost everything you see in sg blogshops/fep are from there, this is something which sucks much, haha! But you'll definitely wouldn't come out of those markets empty handed!

Yeahh, ytd was last day out with baby, had fish&co for dinner/caught alice in the wonderland 3D movie. Call me crazy or whatsoever, got this pair of shoe with some kind of ribbon at the front and a small metal plate on top! I like it alot though i know its 'simple' and not worth the price yadayada.. Wanted to get the silver one which is sold out almost everywhere, but decided to get the gold one, cause is love at first sight.

Anyway, time flies too quickly when you're having fun! I hope baby will be doing fine inside army, see you soon in 10days! <3

2010-03-01T20:27:00.000-08:00

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Hello all, will be back blogging with a new skin after 10march! Anyway, i'm so so so excited now, cause im heading bkk this friday with bb!^^ Yay, am the happiest girl in the world. Okay bye now! Need to mug for my papers cause i'm so dissapointed with myself for not able to do well for the first two paper. Dawn shall mug hard! :)

2010-02-14T12:55:00.000-08:00

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All I want is here and now, but its already been and gone.

A NOTE TO SELF:

"Many things lost, but much gained. You never know what you had until it's gone, and you never know what you really want until you're alone. I haven't really changed, but I'm not the same person. Being alone either makes you get wiser or just insane, but maybe I'm both?"

2010-01-17T22:03:00.000-08:00

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Your love is my drug.

Hi, so busy with school, assignments and work! Baby is coming back in few more hrs! Can't wait to give him a big hug! Anyway manage to meet up with prissy & cass for awhile. Valerie on thursday, as well as el on friday! And out with jessica. Yay after so long, manage to meet everyone up, imma a happy girl! Love you all! Alright, gonna have dinner now! :)

2010-01-01T18:41:00.000-08:00

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2010.

Hi to all after so long! Oh time flies, 2009 had ended.

It was such a walking disaster in the early of 2009 for me but a memorable one at the end. First, it was hell for me after receiving my o's result, it really took me so much courage for me to overcome my fear.. till i finally see that there is actually something out there for me. Currently, i've not much to say about my studies, but i'm absolutely doing fine right now! :) Yeap and r/ship with family isn't doing really good at first but as time passes, its better now! Hope that we'll always stay this way!

Next, i was caught in a bad romance, with joey. After going through hell lots of shit together, we still remain as friends, most importantly he made me realize lots of stuff. Thanks for knocking some sense into me! And afterall it isn't that bad and i decided to moved on, yes i did (though it seems really impossible at first) Cause i kinda screw myself up by heading to club/started smoking and yadayada getting myself into deeper shit (those who are close with me should know) Well, i could only say 'players are players.' However, i still found that someone who i think that he is unlike any others and i gave my heart to him. Yeah, its rather a long story how we both got together cause everything turns out to be unexpected... Although we are only months old, but i still wanna thankyou for being part of my life, really enjoy every moment together with you, i love you gordon. Get well soon sweetheart!

Lastly, it is basically all about friendship. Drifted with some and found some new ones. Somehow, frankly speaking i'm not living in my own world at all, but i guess i'm kinda a ultimate insecure person at most of the time (or can i say there is a point of time, perhaps being really drown in my bad romance kinda thing) and feel that i could only really open up myself only with certain groups of people or with individual. Yes, i'm totally so proud of myself that i could actually step out of my comfort zone to meet new people, rather than being only open to the one i'm close with. It all started out working at hajilane, thats how i met eldora (love her tonzxzx lah, will jixu one okay! the english like nice only hahahaha) someone who share common interest and stuff with me and through her i met other friends too. Later on, i met prissy and cass (babygirlyy/thats how i like it yeah! weewoowee) through desmond. As time goes on, i enjoy hanging out together with them and we met up quite often, as a result they somehow became my close ones. Yesyesyes, like i've said, i started school in august as well, of course i have awesome classmates like corinne/ct/tt/sindy and all! I've also started working and joined 'thebox' family. They've got fun people over there too (val/grace/ivy..) Not to forget about jes/chrissy/val/joce/vel (each has its own story of how we came close) who made me see that what real friends are, that there is more to only those close old friends and not all are trustworthy and real. They basically forget about what you've been through with them, and they do not have the "forgive and forget" kinda thing and they hold grudges, you know 'actions speaks louder than words'. Aww, i guess it doesn't really matters to me anymore... enough said cause i already have those awesome ones around me &&&&& just wanna say to those i love, thanks for everything and being there at my lowest point of my life, love you all babies! Let's forget about those unhappiness and keep those memorable moment close to our heart! Uh huh, have a great 2010! ♥ ♥ ♥

Mmmm, i took almost and hour plus to type this out! Kinda the longest post at the moment. Ah gotta go see how's my baby doing, poor boy who fall sick yesterday! Ohoh had quite a fun time yesterday with yx and chrissy! ;) okay till then, bye!

2009-11-26T12:41:00.000-08:00

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How i like it.

Oh, haven been updating this space. Hmm, life's great i guess. What about yours? :) I'm kindaaaa feeling v tired everday. School's starting like in two weeks time, like great. Hahaha, been working recently, &&& i'm only abit richer.. soon i'll spent all my mooooos lah, i guess. Tsktsk! Bb is so gonna scold me againzzzzzz. Yes i know, i kept on spending like idk why too. Bought something again yesterday, though i know i have difficulties getting it, well, after going such a big round, luckily my order is taken in... thanks jeslin! Anyway, met up with prissy on monday, great hanging out together! Hehe, lets do that again soon! Next week gonna meet up with val, joce, germ and corinne when school start! Yeah yeah plus working.. Next week schedules seems so packed!! Oh bb don't worry, i'll definitely have time for you. Can't wait to see you like later! Ahhhhh, its so boring nowwww. Gonna rot my day away, since today is my off day and i've got no plans since it is change to monday instead, shall spent time alone!! Ta! :)

2009-11-22T07:20:00.000-08:00

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So fine.

This is enough to make me smile for whole the day.. I'm so tired and i wanna sleep now, gdnight.

2009-11-15T16:13:00.000-08:00

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Tonight.

Hello blogger, i'm back! After sucha long time! Like yoohooo happy birthday to me, i'm finally legal! :) I guess i had a awesome time! Oh yes, i totally love friday! Cause bb and i headed to the zooooo! Hahaha! Although it was raining heavily, but we still had lots of fun in the rain! ^^ Dinner was at angus house at taka/stupid dumb boy who already plan to bring me to the flyer, but however we gave it a miss, as we are already late for our dinner so yeah, i'm so sorry about it! Next time okay, i shouldn't have dillydelly at home, taking my own sweet time to prepare! :( Anyway baby, you know you actually did surprised me alot. The cake...(we both know) heheheh and of course the present ;) I rlly appreciate every single thing you've done! Thankyou for spending both days with me in fact that you still have work the next day! Please do get some good rest tonight! ;) Next, thanks mum & dad for the birthday treat! Thankyou chrissy, val, joce, prissy and cass for the company last night, my apologist that it wasn't well plan, hope you've enjoyed yourself! Lastly, thanks everyone for the wishes on fb as well as texts! Love you all to the bits. ♥♥♥

2009-11-06T00:35:00.000-08:00

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One time.

Exam's over! Ahhh had a bad experience again today while doing my paper. I blank out all of a sudden. Struggling to remember all those things i've memorize earlier on. Sooo yes, i am the last to leave the exam room okayzxxzx. But however, i still managed to do my paper, thank god! Yes mmm so i headed to cityhall to meet up with naz, val and joce for dinner at marina for hotpot. Its been a long time since we last catch up, awesome. :) Did some shopping, but as usual, i bought nothing in the end :( Left at ten. Ohwell, did mention that i got my two new pair of shoe from rubi yesterday, kinda regretted though! I realize the quality's rlly bad. It seems like it tear rlly easily. I hope it could last like for awhile, at least for now. I'll get like something else next month once i get my pay. Make sure i'll get a pair which is rather expensive, most importantly durable! You don't know how annoying it is to keep on seeing your shoes tear and next you will be going around looking for another pair that you actually feels comfortable with!!! Zomgggg, its only 1230, i can't believe i am home at this hours. I got a free ride home cause of joce's friend earlier on so i got home rather early today. Eh i'm so bored now and bb went club for birthday celebration.. OHOH talking about that, happy birthday jeslin ^^ lurvelurve you, hahaha! Lets meet up for another shopping session, hopefully i get something this time round!

2009-11-02T18:33:00.000-08:00

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Drop it low.

Ohwell, one more paper to go! :) awesome. Then i hope i have tons of fun. And i should upload some pictures soon, i am pretty lazy ;) Yeah and although the whole of last week is so tiring, kinda occupied with work and studies, but i guess i pretty enjoyed myself. Caught two movies, jennifer's body and my sister's keeper. Anyway mmm gonna head town for dinner later! Still deciding if i should get a new pair of shoe, cause my current one that i just bought it like last week is giving me blister. :( but luckily mum gave me like hundred bucks to get a new pair! :) Yay! Most probably i would make a top up to get the pair i wanted. Haha, alright gonna get some rest for now, bye!

Ps: I knew you saw me, but i din't expect a turn head from you and walk away like you never knew me, my friend.

2009-10-29T13:27:00.000-07:00

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Fade into you.

NOT.
Ugh, i'm actually kind of dying soon. This is so depressing. There are seriously too many essays to study for marketing and business, it is so driving me crazy! :( Especially business, hell many questions, set a and set b adds up to like perhaps 15 essays if i am not wrong!?!?!?! ohmygawd. What about my mcqs!!!!! Can someone help me please? Every single time i look at the book i feel like sleeping. DIEDIEDIEDIE :( Where is my motivation!? I am working full time this saturday, there goes my day. I probably can't stay up every night to study, i am so turning into a zombie soon. I'M FEELING SO UPSET NOW (insert many sad faces)>>>>>

ALRIGHT, enough of whining!
Mmmm i guess i am not giving up for the grades i am aiming for this two modules. :> WAY TO GO MANZZZZX. Oh i'll be back soon! Gonna hit the books now!

2009-10-28T23:36:00.000-07:00

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Goodnight.

2009-10-20T23:59:00.000-07:00

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Electro pop.

Hi, third post for today. I am so bored over here. I can't seems to be doing things that needed to be done asap. :( Ohgosh, i am feeling so sleepy now!? Today, basically, i slept almost the whole day, like so terrible. Probably is due to yesterday, started work at amk hub. I know that the work place is kinda far for me, but luckily is only a day, hahaha, the rest of the days will be at town areas. Oh & i met valerie, my workmate. Is so fun working with her, a girl with full of craps, but sadly i won't be working with her everytime though :( Anyway bb came to fetched me from work and sent me home. ^^ Tomorrow is bb offday, which means i get to see him again, can't wait! Gonna head to bed late tonight, got to go now for now, gdnight!

2009-10-20T22:42:00.000-07:00

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2009-10-20T19:27:00.000-07:00

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我今天不想温习功课，怎么办？我很糟糕对吗？

2009-10-17T14:18:00.000-07:00

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Us.

2009-10-15T10:47:00.000-07:00

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What i look forward to everyday.

HAHAHAHA, i pon schoool today. Had my wonderful ten hours of sleeep, awesome. :> Ohwell, i kinda enjoy life alot this dayssss. Yayz, had my hair colour done last sunday, and got my tanning on tuesday with jeslin! Gotta fly now and do some stuff before i head out againz later. Tomorrow is my last day of schoool, heeeeeheeeez! :8)

2009-10-12T16:19:00.000-07:00

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Sexy bitch.

Boohoo, monday blues. School and headed to town for my job interview. Reached town like an hour early, so i decided to hang ard mac till one. Anyway i got my job, how awesome, yayness. Will start probably next week! Then i'll have more moooooos. And i so wanna go bkk, but i dont think mum allow me to go with my friends.. Like corinne or eldora or anyone. How sad!? I still don't get it, like why. Ahhh i am so bored over here. Perhaps i shall go and have my nap and meet X at night. - oinks.

2009-10-11T22:53:00.000-07:00

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2009-10-09T23:21:00.000-07:00

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Decided to stay in on a friday night, awesome! Shall hit the sack early if i can.

2009-10-09T17:49:00.000-07:00

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Makes me wonder.

At least for now, but there are rlly some things i am rlly struggling over with so badly. So driving me crazy. Sigh, will anyone understand? Probably not.. but i know god knows, thats enough. Needa change and head out soon, i should have fun on a friday night? Yes? Mmmm i get to see my favorite, so ^^

2009-10-05T00:06:00.000-07:00

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Always getting over you.

I'm not special, unique, or life-changing. But every once in awhile, I realize how happy I actually am.

I think i'm suffering from stm. I took so long to remember what i did the whole week. I was so occupied by school and still school.. Lesson is sort of always in the afternoon session, and time seems to passed so fast everyday. But i still did spent my time wisely, haha. Anyway for monday, school was in the morning session, i managed to meet up with prissy for the whole afternoon, had our ffn together, did some catch up. :) And tuesday over to parkview for potluck again, hahaha. Wednesday, met up with sister and her friends for lunch + l4d + dinner. Thursday, i decided to rest at home and friday head out with g and chill out out at hv in the night with the rest. Saturday, seven with some of the guys for adrian and zul 's advance birthday celebration. & for today, got home at 8 in the morning and yes i slept the whole damn day, omg wasted a day like that, my plans for today is like ruin, *screams* Nevermind, i'm so going to bed soon. Ah and i'm like having a flu and cough again, damn.

2009-09-27T22:17:00.000-07:00

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Whatcha say.

Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you.

2009-09-27T19:33:00.000-07:00

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Hardwork.

School's boring because the lecturer is boring, like almost everyday. Went for ladies night on wednesday with joce/randi/marlin, well glad i did enjoy myself. Saw pris and cass, like yay! ^^ Left for home at like four, slept for three hours and head for school, i nearly died in class, srsly, freaking sleepy like ttm.. Left for home, and slept the whole freaking day! See, i wasted my thursday away! Hahaha! Friday, out with eldora to town, did a little catch up and all, l4d with gwen and her friend. Saturday, randi's birthday over at seven at illuma. A club to chill i guess, cause its pretty empty, probably because it is rather a new club. And left for rebel after that. :) Hope you enjoyed yourself babe! Oh and also mmm, i guess i'll stop heading to club for sometimes. :/

On the other hand, i am so so so so happy, cause i rlly do well for my first two module last month, din't rlly expect that results at all. ^^ alrighty, gotta head for my milo now, milo ftw manzxzx. I'll update soon!

2009-09-22T21:05:00.000-07:00

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X

Aww, what a day! Holidays ended! :( & i dread going to school today. Slept at like 23o last night, almost doze off during lesson time. Marketing is so boring. Idk, like srsly why the lecturer needs to keep on repeating the same old thing over again.. Anyway kinda had a great weekends last week besides the moody part which ruin my nights so badly. Gave zouk a missed on sunday night cause mama don't allow me to stay out, damn. But however Mind cafe in the afternoon with cousins was fun and yesterday a public holiday, over at the guy's condo, had a awesome dinner together with them. Oh yes, recently i realize i rlly rlly had a bad vision this days, idk if i'm having some infection or whatsoever, everything i see is so so so so freaking blur. Ah, damn bored right now, doing some online shopping and so gonna complete my gg season 3 and american next top model later.. Alright, bye!

2009-09-20T02:45:00.000-07:00

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What a night.

I've made up my mind,
No need to think it over,
If i'm wrong I aint right,
No need to look no further,
This ain't lust,
This is love but,

If i tell the world,
I'll never say enough,
Cause it was not said to you,
And thats exactly what i need to do,
If i'm in love with you,

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

I'd build myself up,
And fly around in circles,
Wait then as my heart drops,
and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it.

Can't believe i played this song over and over again so many times.

2009-09-20T00:19:00.000-07:00

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YES.

& then?

2009-09-19T18:18:00.000-07:00

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If only.

Hi, since i'm free, i'd better use this time to update my blog. Ohwell, had farewell for matt, cause he's going back to london for studies! Anyway, clarke q indo chine to drink and i puked like mad cause kenny kept making me lose for the five ten game. According to them i merlion-ed!! El was rather giddy only, luckily she's fine, if not.. After the whole thing, i felt freaking bored and was hoping they could go somewhere! So ended up, the six almost gone but not gone people cab to paradiz for l4d! Nice game! Haha cab home with matt and was v dead at six in the morning, slept all the way till two in the afternoon! Alright, lastly, i need to apologize to chrissy for not able to make it for the surprise party! Yeah and happy 18 to you k, hope you had a blast! Also london boy please take care of yourself, see you the next holiday man! Bon-voyage! :>

2009-09-19T14:10:00.000-07:00

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Oh, is what you do to me.

2009-09-18T19:36:00.000-07:00

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NOT.
Boohoo, its friday! Mmmmm my holidays are ending! :( So sad! For tonight, well i currently do have two plans but one is definitely on but the other.. Shall see how it goes! Gonna grab my dinner, prepare and head outt! Oh i met chrissy on the other day, had fun together! Left with this dub dumber prissy! Rlly not sure when she's free. Okay doky, off i go! Byeeeeee!

2009-09-17T18:23:00.000-07:00

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2009-09-16T03:25:00.000-07:00

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2009-09-14T23:10:00.000-07:00

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There's gotta be more to life.

Hi, what a lazy day at home, because i'm a lazybum. Haha! I quite enjoyed my last weekends. Sunday was dad's birthday, dinner together with family was great. Caught gamer and supper after that with... Oh today's only monday but i cant wait for friday and sunday. On the other hand, so gonna meet up with chrissy and prissy soon! I miss both of them v much! & anyway before i go, happy birthday to eka and lhc! ❤

2009-09-11T03:00:00.000-07:00

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Tonight's gonna be a good night.

Boohoo, finally i can have a proper update. Ohwell, exams is overrrrr! Like finally. Hmm, okay had accounts paper today and i guess is quite shit, but i did my best! So yeap shall leave the rest to god. Anyway headed vivo with joce after paper for dinner, shopped around and headed home rather early cause i am rlly tired somehow due to staying up every night this week. But when i got home i got so glued to playing with my computer and all, its been like thousand year since i sit there for hours and rlly play with it, hahaha 8) Oh oh and i just painted my nails and i toook like a super duper short time to do both my toe nails and finger nails, weeeeeeeeeee. Hmm hope i'll have fun tomorrow! Eka's birthday celebration then follow by phuture, thats if am going. Currently i've got like no clubbing mood at all and clubbing almost every week last month is crazy. Alrighty gonnna like turn in sooon! Gdnight people! Have an awesome weekends! ^^v

2009-09-10T16:32:00.000-07:00

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Awesome much.

2009-09-08T23:02:00.000-07:00

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I can see you stalking like a predator
I've been here before
Temptation calls like Adam to the apple
But I will not be caught
Cause I can read those velvet eyes
And all I see is lies

No more poison
Killing my emotion
I will not be frozen
Dancing is my remedy, remedy, oh
Stop stop preying
Cause I'm not not playing
I'm not frozen
Dancing is my remedy, remedy, oh

Move while you're watching me
Dance with the enemy
I've got a remedy
Oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
Move while you're watching me
Dance with the enemy
Here is my remedy
Oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

Paper yesterday was fine i guess? I hope i can get good results because i rlly put in alot of effort. Another paper to go! :> I THINK STUDY IS GOOD, SO I AM GOING TO STUDY LIKE NOW!! Oh and l4d with leo, andy and some others last night was quite fun although... Okay nevermind, i'm off, bye!

2009-09-07T04:25:00.000-07:00

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Insensitive.

2009-09-04T14:31:00.000-07:00

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Holy mama, i just realize 7sept is on monday. this is cow shit :( ah fuck man, seriously. Nothing just seems to get into my brain! Howwwwwwwww! :( i really did studied. I can just cry now. Sighed dawn, yet am still heading out later, so terrible ttm!

2009-09-03T23:04:00.000-07:00

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2009-09-02T23:23:00.000-07:00

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BANG! Accounts is seriously wtf ttm :(

2009-08-31T02:43:00.000-07:00

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I am different from others, small little things can get me real affected, even when it is only a comment. It just sucks so much.

2009-08-30T13:38:00.000-07:00

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2009-08-29T18:41:00.000-07:00

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Run this town.

Yesterday, dinner at ps with leo and friends for dessy's last week before he head to taiwan for some army shit. Headed to one of his friend's condo, see them breakdancing for awhile and parted. Left for phuture to find greg and others. Thirteen people is kinda alot, but it was better than last week. Anyway tried to enjoyed myself... yadayada. Hmm there were so many fight last night? Its like so damn joke. Haha oh and today i decided to have no plans for the last minute and study tonight! I must be a good girl, i must do well for my paper, & yes i will!

2009-08-27T22:42:00.000-07:00

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Its a matter of time.

Ohman, am seriously so lazy to do updates w/o pictures. Its gonnna be hell boring! Hmm, had mock exam today.. it was such a a disaster. And, no more schooool from today, study break! Since there is no school tomorrow, i decided to go for a tan myself and might go over to touched up my hair colour. In the evening? Hmm i shall see what's my plan. Ahhh, so bored here. This post is so redundant.

2009-08-27T18:17:00.000-07:00

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2009-08-26T20:50:00.000-07:00

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Avalanche.

HI YOU. TODAY AFTER LESSON, HEAD TOWN AND MET JOCE. OHYES SO EXCITED ABOUT THE BAG I SAW! IT IS RLLY DAMN FREAKING NICE, I SO WANT IT, real badly. Ahhhh can't stop thinking about it. If so i'll get them by roughly next week but they might not have it anymoreeeeeee. Sighed, you know the price is so freaking cheap! $4XX, zomgggg. Anyway i am falling sick v soon. My cough is killing me so badly.. Oh i need to hit the books after dinner! Cause currently i've some motivation to do so ^^ Weeeeeeee, bye!

2009-08-24T20:00:00.000-07:00

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BIG SIGH, EVERYDAY I AM FEELING LIKE A TIRED ONLY. >:( ZOMGGGGGGGGGG.

2009-08-22T14:01:00.000-07:00

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Day & night.

Yesterday, finally met up with prissy in the late afternoon, cass joined us later on. Dinner/hang around ps and left for home at eight. Changed and met jocye under my blk and left to hv to find leo and friends for Mimolete. Alright together there is fourteen of us who went, its just rather plain over there, not my kind of stuff, unless those who loves open air &&... Left for phuture @ one. Hmm, i realize i always lost my friends halfway through, everyone likes to go seperate ways, haha. This sounds so stupid. Somehow idk why jocye left to have supper with one of my friend, and i don't even know about it. The part when she isn't picking up my calls, pissed me off so badly and got me worried. Ohwell, yes i din't enjoyed much cause half the time i was actually taking care of this drunk cousin's of eka.. Super duper funny. Soooooooo i happened to have too much or so at the end and i happily just dropped the cup on the floor and i swear i didn't do it on purpose, omg is just so damn embrassing, i got rlly stunt as well :/ Whatever just not that well, quite gone. But anyway i still got home safely around five. :> Anyway, i'm not so sure if there is going to be pictures. Leo's cam is damn lousy! Hahah. Alright, need to stay home and finish up my work. I must i must i must i must i must i must i must i must i must i must i must i must do it by today!!

2009-08-20T16:04:00.000-07:00

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2009-08-17T22:00:00.000-07:00

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Because you cheat.

Oh sigh, msn seriously is pissing me off so badly. Or perhaps is my desktop or whatever. I hate to use e-buddy as it takes super long to log in msn. Been using my phone to surf the net and all. Idk where the problem lies, definitely not my internet connection i guess. And damn i could have just thrown my desktop away, annoying shit. Anyway headed home after lesson with classmates straight and took nap. Did my accounts but i'm still halfway in trying to understand what is it all about, doing it blindly. I kept reading through my work but still... Will someone teach me accounts please? :( On the other hand i had fun on last saturday, after ben's chalet headed over to rebel with dy/randi/marline but... hahaha almost all wasted buying tix, cause one of them who couldnt get into the club due to some stupid shit, and ended up the id lender got bounce out as well, nice! We drink our night away instead over at dy's condo with his friends, played true or dare and the other stupid drinking game. & my sunday was burned by sleeping away till six in the evening... Alrighty, i guess i so need a tan, i need my pay.

2009-08-16T20:03:00.000-07:00

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2009-08-14T01:43:00.000-07:00

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Catch me.

Hello you. Had lesson @ 330 to 630. Met up with jocye for dinner at vivo. Shopped again, like always. I realize i've got four new dresses and a top. I think i'd better stop buying clothing before mum starts nagging me for always spending. But it makes me feel good. Retail therapy, i like.

Oh well do you believe in horoscope? I don't, but this one sound so true.. Some kind like what i've told jocye earlier on.

"You are feeling particularly emotional today, Scorpio, and it is hitting you like a ton of bricks. It may feel impossible to get this person off your mind, but you are going about it the right way by keeping busy. Don't focus on the bigger picture right now, or even the bigger feelings at play. You've done the work, and put it all out there, now is a time for patience. Remember that you get what you put out, so feeling despondent will do you no good. Waiting this one out is going to pay off ten fold in the long run."

I'm running out of words. The whole paragraph above just describe how i felt the whole day. This just sucks v much isn't it.

2009-08-13T21:07:00.000-07:00

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Too much.

I'm so annoyed for now. How can i squeezed everything into my tinyweeny brain in between a month, zomg i'm so confused ttm with my work. I'm so like doing it halfway plus surfing the net, how nice. I'm trying my best to understand the whole chunk of shit over there.

Anyway, headed home after school. As i'm feeling so tired today, i took a nap but still feeling rather sleepy, yawning every minute. There is suppose to be no lesson tomorrow but due to last week... lesson is @ 330 instead. Which means i'm able to stay up late tonight, buttt even before twelve i am already dozing off. Today is quite a bad day for me. I'm feeling quite down and only one person in this whole world knows about it. I went to - and i saw (few in the blanks) stared at the page for sometimes and my mind is filled with countless of why. Seriously i just don't get it, maybe you can tell me. Why does things happened this way? Just not the way you want it to be. I really dislike the feelings. I just so wanna fill this post with all my thoughts but i just don't know how can i do so - major pouts (el's favorite muahahaha) Between i tried to use the normal template earlier on, but i still think that it is rather plain, should i change it or not? Ahh nevermind, i think i better go off now now now.

2009-08-13T12:21:00.000-07:00

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"My only relief is to sleep. When I’m sleeping, I’m not sad, I’m not angry, I’m not lonely, I’m nothing."

2009-08-11T00:07:00.000-07:00

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Today, moving forward has never felt so good -- and it has never been more possible.

BUSY BUSY LIKE A BUMBLE BEE.

School started on last tuesday, which sucks v much cause its freaking boring but i've pat to keep me accompanied, hehe! Rushed to work after that! A super duper busy day at work, headed home pretty late. Next day, i fall sick with a high fever... But however, i still went to school for my comm skills lesson and headed for dental and work. Left for home halfway through when working cause i was feeling vvvv shitty. Trying so hard to rest the whole night, hiding under my blanket... :( Fever subsided the next day. Luckily, i had no lesson on thursday so i rested till noon and went for work. Dinner with prissy and s after that. Friday, went to school for the sake of accounting, but stupid school have mixed up the timetable so my class eventually went to school for nothing and the lesson is postpone to this coming friday, how annoying please! So went to vivo with classmates in the mean time before work since none of us wanna head home. Parted with them and left for work after that. Was pretty down at night because i headed home early partly due to prissy who ended work earlier than me/that stupid ass who supposed to meet me but in the end... I slept early that night with an empty stomach and a bad quarrel with mum... The next day, surprisingly mum had breakfast for me in the morning and yadayada and i left for work cause i was on a full shift. After work, left to meet randi/marline/jocye for shisha instead of club cause of some reasons. Later they left to somewhere while i decided to go home but due to no respond from mum after calling her a million times, i went to meet d and spent my whole night slacking there. Left for home in the morning and slept for few hours before heading for my last day of work. What a day with a bad sore throat/flu/cough (i sound like a tranny i swear), i am losing my voice and i so wanted to drink the whole bottle of cough syrup badly as well, seriously can't stop coughing. After work, had dinner with prissy at xingwang and met leo to chill and movie "where got ghost" at thecathay, home around one ish plus.

Basically, my previous week was so about school and working. Finally the private sales had come to an end, so now i could relax and concentrate more on my school work unless i want to commit as a part timer. Work was seriously so tiring, with those irritating taitais around, one who could actually try like more than twenty pieces of tops/pants at a time. Making us folding and hanging back everything probably countless time... Sometime looking at the pile of clothes makes me feel like jumping in to swim, haha. But in between, we had lots of fun and i will definitely miss dion and joey who actually rlly take care of trainees like us! & eedah that crazy woman too! :) Hopefully we get to see each other sometimes soon in the next private sales. Lastly, two things that happened last week that make me so happy! Firstly, is this rlly nice sandals that i once wanted to get from topshop and you know i bought it at a dirt cheap price, am so so so happy over the moon! And secondly my f21 top arrived! Weeeee, ^^v yayness totally! Ohwell, for today town with corinne after school instead of ikea! & met up with sister for dinner! Hehehe, its been a long long time since i actually posted a long post! &&&& i miss el, haven been seeing her lately. If you are reading this you know what to do! :>

2009-08-04T23:02:00.000-07:00

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It's you i can't deny...

2009-08-02T17:55:00.000-07:00

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A breathe of sunshine.

Saturday, last minute social house plans with one of my gf together with dessy and his friends. Although it was a ladies night and we got in for free by vip but it still sucks v much. They had weird queues which could actually takes up hours just to get in, songs are pretty bad too with the whatever bikinis shit thing over there. But awesome because i saw a few familiar faces. We left the club around four plus and cabbed home around five. They should name their club boring house, i can't believe i actually tried to enjoy when its hell boring. Oh yeah since someone is late, he got me a drink and with the drink all i do is stand near the bar and stare at people! Well everyone is doing the same thing too by just stoning or waking in and out in and out... Gahh no more next time i guess! Ahaha. Phuture this saturday! J's birthday together with some others! Weeeeeeeee! Hehehehehe. ^^
Today, woke up early just to go for the flea market, but all the rest are still sleeping! However el isn't picking up my calls. Ohwell so i ended up going down with prissy and cass. Joined a few others for awhile.. Got myself a top from the flea. Hang around vivo and left for home. I think i need a good rest and thank god i had no school tomorrow but however today shall mark my last day of holidays after so many months. School is starting plus work for the whole of next week. Am so gonna be busy! :(